I have so many things I want to do. For some reason, I just can’t commit and spend time on any of them. Instead of picking one thing I have five and none of them are getting the attention that they truly need. Rather, I’m working a full-time job, that I really don’t like, and it’s just dragging me down. I get emails from work and I just want to ignore them because I don’t care, I get home from work and I’m so deflated that I just want to sit on the couch and watch TV. I feel lazy and unmotivated which I hate.
I don’t mean to complain. I hate to be negative. But I’m just feeling tired and discouraged and like I have no real path.
The one thing I do know is I love my family and I want to spend as much time as I can with them. I just don’t know how to do that, have an income, and not feel like I’m just going through the motions.
Here is a thought: If I spend a half an hour on each end of the day I might be able to do some of those things I like to do while still working my desk job until I can figure out my next move. Hmmm… I think that’s gonna be my plan. I’m gonna try and get up a half an hour earlier to work out every day and then at night I’m going to try and spend a half an hour working on a passion projects whatever that may be, maybe it’s this blog maybe it’s a Podcast idea, maybe it’s becoming a health coach. But I’m gonna spend a half an hour at night, a couple times a week, trying to figure out what I truly want to do. To be fair to myself I’m going to try and do it 3-4 days a week so that I don’t put so much pressure on myself to do it every single night. I know that’s unrealistic and if I miss one night, I am the type of person who would just give up and say it’s not possible.
Hopefully this will help me feel like I’m doing more for myself and making a plan for my future doing something I truly want to be doing. It’ll make me a happier person and in return a better wife and mother which is ultimately all I want.
Here’s to giving it a try! I will let you know how it goes 🙂